Ice Castles

There's been so much going on recently that it's kind of hard to keep track of it all. One minute, I may be working, driving pizzas all over the not-so-great-town of Bixby. The next? Downtown at a bar with my new (or old!) friends, or hanging out at a former coworker's apartment.

The point is that my life is going into overdrive, and I'm not quite sure how to pace myself yet. Yeah, I'll get there eventually, but what about RIGHT NOW??? What about all the sleep I need, or the bonds I want to strengthen? Booze to be had, drugs to be consumed, fast women, loose cars...? There's just so much that I want to do, but there're things that I need to do before all that.

I need my car fixed. There're several things still wrong with it, some minor, and others... It's gonna take some time, but it's coming along nicely.

I need to save money. Delivering pizza is awesome, and getting tipped WITHOUT having to claim it? Awesomer. It's just a matter of making those tips last as long as I can, and to do that, I just need to have them teleported from my wallet to my bank account automatically. Anyone have that technology yet? If so, you know where to reach me. ;-*

I need to reconnect with my family. My mother, brother, sisters, father, aunts, uncles, cousins... I miss them all so much. Just this past weekend, though, I went to spend the day with my dad (who lives in Kansas), and had a great time! He gave me new shoes and a new jacket, money to help me out (used it to get my front tires replaced), AND he bought the movie tickets for The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS MOVIE TO EVERYONE SO JUST GO SEE IT

I need to find my center. I think my problem with everything else is that I don't have a lot of focus right now. I mean, I have goals, but no direction. It's like I'm Scott Summers, but without the special glasses that keep me from destroying everything with my "optic blasts". As soon as I get them, you'd better watch out! I've been working on this a lot lately, and am finally starting to display the confidence that I've let go to waste all these years.

There's so much more to this, but it'll have to wait. It's 5 in the damned morning. -_-